ThisWinterWoman

  • Loving these #puritan #valentinesday cards! 😂😂😂
  • This weekend my women’s group hosted a #ifgathering2018.@JennieAllen, founder of IF, vulnerably admitted her struggle with doubt, and I was blown away. I’ve never heard a person of influence admit their doubt in God in such a public way. .
 I mentioned earlier in my feed that while I didn’t 100% agree with everything said from the stage, I was still challenged by many of the speakers. @jennieallen is one of them.
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Thank you Jennie for your honesty and for inspiring this weeks post on ThisWinterWoman.com. ..
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  • My promise to myself. ..
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  • Today? Well, today I’m learning how to accept everyone as my teacher.  No, I didn’t agree with everything said from the #ifgathering2018 stage last night. Yes, I find fault in parts of the theology presented. But I also was challenged from the same speakers I disagreed with. .
Im learning that maybe I don’t have to 100% agree with everything said in order to learn from it. .
Stand firm in your spiritual walk, but allow yourself to gather wisdom everywhere. ..
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  • Tonight and tomorrow I’ll be joining thousands of women across the world as we encourage each other and challenge one another
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I’m so excited to spend the weekend with glorious leaders and soak in their wisdom
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I’m learning how to come back to my Christian roots and infuse them with new meaning. Taking familiar stories and ideas and breath life back into them, this weekend is another step in that process
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  • “You cannot imagine all the places you'll see Jesus / But you'll find Him everywhere you thought He wasn't supposed to go”
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I had the honor of hearing @nicholenordeman perform this week. It was the first time I had ever heard her music and I was blown away by her song “Dear Me”, particularly this line. .
The song is a vulnerable and honest letter to her past self, looking back at her spiritual growth and how her well intentioned, but mistaken, theology hurt others. .
Dear Ones, we can be so well intentioned when we hurt others, thinking we know what they need to save them. . 
I am meditating on this line all day- looking back, looking forward, and looking for Jesus in my present. And remebering to “love, love, love, love /As you have been loved/ Love, love, love, love/ Like it's your own blood”
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What would you say to your past self?
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I did not vote for Donald Trump. But I am far from innocent.

Dear ones,

I’ve started this post five or six times, each time I am at a loss for words.  My heart and my soul grieve.

How is this happening again? What have we done?

When ‘45’ publicly sympathized with Neo Nazi’s I was stunned. Stunned, but not surprised. I’m not proud of this, but my first reaction was one of superiority- “See?! We told you this guy was terrible! I bet they really feel like shit for voting for him.” I practiced what I would say the next time I saw a Republican family member or friend, the snide comments I would make. I took great pleasure in imagining exactly how I wanted to make them to feel- ashamed, remorseful, embarrassed.

 

It has taken me a few days to calm down. I’m still learning how to love properly. I’m sorry.

 

The thing is, I did not vote for Donald Trump.

But I am far from innocent.

 

I have decades of Thanksgiving dinners, family events, and Saturday morning brunches where I didn’t say something.  An off color comment here. A questionable joke there. I let “respect” or “I don’t want to make it weird” get in the way.

 

I march.

I write.

I volunteer.

How did this happen? I stayed silent when it really mattered.

 

I donate to the ACLU.

I read books by progressive authors.

I majored in Anthropology and Women’s Studies.

What have I done? I opted for a silent, thin lipped, stare.

 

Responding to hate with more hate, or with moral superiority will never fix this. But neither will pretending not to hear ignorant comments, opting instead to “keep the peace”.

 

I am sorry.

 

I am sorry for my silence when my voice may have had the most impact. I am sorry for putting the totality of the blame on “them”, and not seeing how I am complicit in allowing hate, injustice, or simple ignorance, to grow. I am sorry for focusing on how my liberal, and oh-so-progressive opinions make me a more enlightened thinker, and less on actually responding to veiled racism and fear around the dinner table.

 

I will confront.

I will confront, not with shaming, but with love.

 

Always with love,

Alyse

 


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2 thoughts on “I did not vote for Donald Trump. But I am far from innocent.

  1. Silence, there is nothing wrong with silence my whole life I have lived in silence but that doesn’t mean I don’t stand up for what I believe is right nor does it make me feel bad about myself I think that actions speak louder than words therefore I preform action rather than just talk about something. You do all these other things that mean way more than any word could describe and you reach out to people in ways that speak louder than words.

    1. I love this. I absolutely love this. And I think you are so right, actions speak volumes over words. For me, what I have found is that I am silent out of nicety or a desire not to make someone else angry. But I cannot let that fear get in the way of saying what I believe, or to you point, taking action for my beliefs. Thank you for your comment- I so hope you are well.

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